We are figuring each other out

So, I have been a mom for about 18 days.  When I put it like that, I realize it hasn't been very long at all...but it seems like he was born a year ago. Is that possible? I guess it is lack of sleep and trying to figure out what this little human being needs. It is amazing how you instantly fall in love with someone the minute they are placed in your lap. It is one of the most overwhelming, cool, and scariest experiences I've ever had. It is also one of the hardest things I've ever done. So for the past 18 days this is what I've learned.

1.  I can't imagine doing this by myself without David by my side. As I watch him with our son I fall in love with both of them a little more everyday. We are learning together this is a hard job...and it has already began to strengthen our marriage.

2. As I am a mom, I think I have learned to appreciate my mother more. I don't know what I would do without her. I have cried to her, laughed with her, called her in the middle of the night, and she has done nothing but listen with open arms...hug when she needs to and tell me to buck up it will be okay when she needs to. :) I've learned that even though I am a mom...I still need my mom!

3. I am a person that likes to have a plan and know what is happening next, and Mr. Fletcher is teaching me that sometimes plans don't work out and you figure things out as they come. God is teaching me so much through this little guy, and that is one of the biggest. You think you are not a selfish person, and then you have a baby and realize how YOU driven your life has been. I've done what I wanted to do when I wanted to do it...and now...everything is on hold for him. It is a sweet lesson and one that I think most parents go through...(if you haven't don't tell me because I will feel guilty. ) When I put him to bed at night I read over Jermiah 29:11 that hangs above his crib...and thank God that He has a plan and it is okay if I don't know what it is.

4. It hit me the other night that I will be this boys momma for the rest of my life. I know it sounds funny...but so many titles that have defined a big part of who I am will change. I may not always be an English teacher, volleyball coach, student, friends will change...Heck..I may not even be David's wife for the rest of my life. (Although, I'm very confidnet I will be...no worries) :) But...I will be Fletcher James mom for the rest of my life...nothing will change that. That is so humbling and overwhelming. Mom is a title you hold for life. Nothing is more rewarding and nothing scare me more. :)

So...18 days in and it seems like I've learned more lessons in these 18 days than I have my entire life. Let's see what the next 18 days will hold...I hope more sleep comes with it. :)